aledonrex

I had something like 2500 submissions, I had to delete them all. I'm busy, tired and angry recently, I'm starting to hate a lot of people, and this is not good. I'm working hard to finish commissions and trades, then I think I'll stop to make trades and commissions for a bit. Too many regrets in my life. Aledon Rex Allosaurus of darkness and water www.aledonrex.com - - - ~aledonrex (https://www.deviantart.com/aledonrex) :iconlove: :iconfeatherclaw:

On Furaffinity I asked if I have to stop to draw because I'm not feeling happy when I draw and a lot of people replied "absolutely not, take a break if you want, but don't stop to draw, it's silly". I made a decision for now: I will not draw anything for me, I'll just draw for other people. Why? Because it seems that I feel anger only when I draw for myself, when I draw something I like. This for porn and clean art, even if this is more evident with adult art. Why do I feel anger? Mostly because I'm not able to draw what I want in the way I want. Mostly because I like too much what I'm drawing that even a little mistake makes me disappoint

Thank you to everybody wrote in my previous journal "What is friendship? ". I don't have the will to reply to everybody because my mind is still a mess, but I appreciate your comments. Lately is a strange period for a lot of reasons. Also I think I'm changing inside me and this makes me insecure. Also next week is my birthday (I will be 26 yo on 21th, February) and this makes me very nervous. Thank you everybody who cares about me. As usual my English sucks ^^;